February 2012
40 posts
ALSO if I haven’t been responding to personal messages lately it’s because i only get on tumblr on my phone and don’t want to post all that wonderful stuff for everyone to see. but I appreciate every word and love you all :3
Anonymous asked: what do you think of andrea gibson?
oh my god i just want to fuck someone from behind...
i bend and my spine breaks through the skin standing in the shower water and sanity puddling around my toes i am dizzied. all sense of belonging is masked by the pounding of the water. i cannot focus. lavender scented silence, it is early morning and you are in the next room your lips spread open like you’re waiting to speak but instead you sigh and your gentle steady heart, your new and...
Anonymous asked: i was in love once too. sometimes you get so infatuated and focused on the idea of what it COULD become that you forget to look at it for what it is. Focus on your writing, your work, and what that COULD become because you have complete control over that. forget about love, it only makes you sad. it'll happen when you dont want it to. Your sad posts sound like me when i was sad, and...
my final word on the subject
i asked her last night, point blank, if she had hope for us. she told me that she still had the bitter taste in her mouth, and until it went away, she had zero interest in getting back together. so that’s that, she doesn’t want to be with me. and the more i think about it, i don’t think i want to be with her either. do i love her? absolutely, very much. but the person she is...
and today, i feel good. really damn good.
i feel so lonely. i just want to be held, to curl up into someone. not someone, you. to kiss you. to put my hand on the back of your neck. i just want to make some kind of contact that matters. i want to feel your skin.
every tegan and sara song is my life omgggg
nineteen _tegan and sara
there's a very large part of me that wants to go...
Anonymous asked: Who was your first kiss?/what was it like? What is your favourite part about a girls body? It doesn't have to be in a sexual way, simply just something that intrigues you. What is your favourite television show, if any?
my cat just fell asleep with my big toe in her mouth.
we have a very special relationship.
Anonymous asked: You are incredibly beautiful, its unreal. I hope things get easier for you, and that everything turns out exactly how it needs to be. Keep your chin up, lovely.
just to clear the air about some things
rachel isn’t a bad person. she didn’t cheat on me or fuck me over or dump me maliciously. she isn’t some unfeeling monster and i know she never wanted to hurt me like this. we’re just both going through some very real shit right now, and she feels that neither of us will truly be able to figure it all out if we’re together. we both need time to focus on ourselves. ...
Anonymous asked: You beautiful, thriving soul. Please don't destroy yourself in the process. I see pictures of you and look at your eyes and I see a deepness that's so rare these days. Don't lose it. Don't fill yourself up with sadness. I see so much in you, and it gives me hope.
the only thing i care about right now is what’s in my heart, and right now, all that’s in there is sickness. a sickness that has been controlling me for far too long, a sickness that ruined my relationship, a sickness that has left me absolutely destroyed. i need to take care of that sickness, i need to heal my heart. i love rachel more than i have words to express, and despite...
my fucking heart hurts.
i'm not going to be on tumblr for a while. add me...
madi baer. my picture looks like me. the end.
January 2012
177 posts
Anonymous asked: chin up. you love her, she loves you no matter what is said or done.
sometimes i wish i could unlive all of this, unsign those papers, uninvite you home with me, unkiss you, unmeet you. go back and never fall in love with you. sometimes i feel like it would just be better for both of us if we had stayed strangers at a bar.
maybe we would both be okay now.
